Long time no do this.

So how do you break it to a long time employer that you're looking for a new job?  I'm pretty sure I'm done being a librarian, or at least stop trying to be one.  I need a new goal in life and need new experiences, and I'm not going to get those here.  Hopefully the upcoming interview goes well, if not I'll still be stuck in the same rut looking for a way to get out.

I've had some great times here, I really have, but those seem to be few and far between now, and that's a shame.  My last truly great experience has been almost a year ago.  I can be assured that some of this is my fault and I have not put my full effort out into doing everything I can, but maybe that is why I need a change. I need to step away from my safety net here, I need to try and fail or succeed somewhere else.  I need my motivation back.  I can feel a little part of my dying every day at work doing the same thing over and over again, and hoping for new results, the definition of crazy. I need to do something, anything to change that.

Here's to all the fond memories and those yet to come. That's it for now, should start updating more regularly now.

Wow it's been a year already

Since planning the last festival, and boy did this one come with its challenges.  The weather did not cooperate at all, between flying umbrellas and then almost being impaled by one (that was fun), it turned out OK.  It most definitely could have been better but that is a discussion I don't want to get into.  Now the moment of truth, I'm no longer going to be a foot soldier for the festival, I'll be taking it over.  What am I getting myself into?  Can I do it, do I have the time or patience for it?  I have no idea, all I know is I will be asking my friends for help and support to get it done.  Some of you have already come out and told me that you will support me and believe I can do it, well it's time to find out if I can.

In another story I'm slightly becoming more and more tired of the dead end and lack of advancement for my job, so much so as to submit resumes and talk to friends about other employment opportunities.  And for the first time in my 27 year life, I've finally gotten a rejection letter, boy those are fun. Oh well I guess I'll keep looking, and asking around. Well I guess that's all for this mini update, until next time.

Just chugging along, barely

It's been a while since I posted on either of my blogs, but it's about time I change that.  Ahhh, one word to describe my week: FAIL! The boat I go sailing on is nowhere near ready and nowhere near close to being finished.  The city I love/work in flooded due to too much rain, but for a while I had a lake front library.  Here's the video for you to see, this was the view out the front door into the street.

I have sadly turned down another exhibit to showcase my photos, I thought I was over my whole fear/uncertainty of my photos, turns out I was wrong.  Then to make things better after I turned down the exhibit I went to go visit my friend's art on a one day exhibit.  Good for him, good show too.

I'm just going to end this post here, before this just becomes one long complaint list, I'll post something more entertaining next time.

Started a new blog

To keep work stuff off this blog, or only the occasional story, I have decided to start a new blog.  Hopefully I can update it more frequently.

Check it out My adventures in accidental librarianship.

I'm really bad at this blogging thing...

I cannot consistently blog and I apologize, life has been just a tad busy recently. So I was offered the biggest photo job of my career so far and ended up losing it.  I was offered a gig to shoot the Cirque du Soleil rehearsal and show, but this came at a time when my mother's boiler broke in February, so I was apparently in a dead zone in her basement trying to fix her boiler so she could have heat.  I ended up missing the phone call and they had to go to another photographer.  Being disappointed is an understatement, but I wouldn't have changed what happened, my mom's house had heat by the end of the day, and I had no photo gig.  I'm honored to know that I was thought of for such a prestigious job, and can hopefully be offered similar things in the future.  In the meantime I have to get better at responding to people about photo sales that email me.  I am being published by two different organizations for publications and am really excited about this. So things are looking up on that front.

About my day time job, well that is just "interesting." To say that I am getting burned out is an understatement, it feels as if I'm being punished for being a good worker and dependable.  Being the "go to guy" is becoming really frustrating, I do not enjoy being responsible to make sure everyone does what they are supposed to, or if they don't having to be the one that fixes it.  There was a conversation I had where I was told that I need to know how to do everything here, and that I can't rely on the other employees. I'm highly tempted to just pack up and disappear for a while, but alas this stupid mortgage is more of an anchor than I thought.  I told a co-worker that I thought of going on an extended vacation to try and save my sanity, his response was: "tell me when, so I can quit, I don't want to be here to see what happens if you're gone." Hey at least some other people can see what I do at work, I guess that's good?

February and March are blending together and moving by too fast, between travelling and lack of sleep/rest I might honestly be going insane.  I did have a wake up moment when I saw a friend with an eerily similar life habit as mine, end up in the emergency room with heart troubles.  Seeing a friend in the hospital and seeing why he was there, and relating to yourself is quite a scary ordeal.  To be able to picture yourself in the same position and not knowing if/when it will happen makes you question certain things.  The only problem is neither of us can take our foot off the gas, so to speak, in our lives.  We only have one speed and one way of doing things, now we get to think of us as young and dumb with one foot in the grave.  Well here's to hoping we can make it for quite a few more years.

Back to Step 0

Damn you Facebook, damn you to hell! Seriously who the hell knew I would need Facebook for work related items.  One freaking day away is all I got from that place.  So everyone who's my friend, just remember I don't take Facebook seriously, it's a way for me to vent and make bad jokes.  Also thank you to my MC for keeping me mostly out of trouble on their.

Step 1 to becoming more productive

Deactivated Facebook.

In a much needed step to increase my productivity I deactivated my account, I'll see how long I can go, or if I'll ultimately delete my account. Hmm back to the days where I missed learning about parties and other things, oh well life goes on.