I've been having more fun and taking this photography thing slightly more seriously than before, now that has led to the problem of me having pictures that I'm not sure what to do with. I do enjoy going out as many of you know and most of these places serve alcohol, and seeing that I almost always have a camera around I do manage to get some interesting photos. Which leads me to the conundrum that the title of this posts asks, do I publish these photos or do I sit here laughing at them?
Ahh pre-social networking days you just showed these photos to your friends, or at parties and go look how stupid so and so was or how drunk he/she was, now within 5 minutes everyone can find out about your idiotic dance moves, or what new and inventive way you've come up to hurt yourself. Speaking with other photogs I've learned that almost everyone likes the camera guy and yes it does make it easier to approach certain ladies, albeit these ladies are usually attention whores who you would never bother to call back. But seriously what is one to do with such photos, do you go up to the people and go look hahaha we were so funny and stupid, now can I post these for the world to see? I shall sit here lamenting with my choices and at the same time be thankful that I am the one behind the camera and not in front of it.
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
What is wrong with Me?
So I'm on a path of self destruction and don't care enough to change it.
I've already had this conversation before, but what the hell I'm venting. I'm fighting the idea of whether or not I'm actually an asshole, bear with me for a moment as I explain my logic. There have been now two times in my life that I've been hurt by the opposite sex, the first time was not a great emotional attachment but she said something that completely f*cked me up. After that I went on a sort of douchebag/asshole trend that lasted some time. I ended up taking a break and returning to "normal." This is where I met most of my friends, and hear from everyone that Konrad is a nice guy, we all like him. I tend not to ever hang out with the people I met during douchebag days.
Well recently I've been back on the whole asshole road again, only this time I'm realizing it. The only thing that I don't know is am I an asshole or is it my defense mechanism to the world. I am doing things without thinking anymore, and stuff I would normally not do. The bar has become my sanctuary, and yesterday a friend told me we're only 25 we should have a substance abuse problem...NO WE SHOULDN'T, and why the hell would you tell me this? Now I'm not sure if I'm an asshole with periods of being nice, or a nice guy with a tendency to become an asshole.
Case in point last Wednesday, getting out of class a girl I went to undergrad with came up and talked to me (backstory I have turned her down at least a dozen times before), started talking to me and asked me if I want to go out. A reasonable response would have been, no I'm sorry I'm busy or something of the sort; My response during this whole asshole phase: Sorry 13 is not your lucky number, and I'm sorry I just don't find you attractive. Again I didn't realize what I said/did until after and it was too late. I've lost the filter in my head to stop me from saying/doing these types of things. The only saving grace I can think of is that I feel bad about these things later, not much of a saving grace though. So right now I'm trying to figure out who I really am, and maybe I should reinvent myself, because I don't know what the hell is wrong with me anymore.
In other news I'm back to eating once a day if at all, and still trying to work out at about 1 in the morning. Oh well.
I've already had this conversation before, but what the hell I'm venting. I'm fighting the idea of whether or not I'm actually an asshole, bear with me for a moment as I explain my logic. There have been now two times in my life that I've been hurt by the opposite sex, the first time was not a great emotional attachment but she said something that completely f*cked me up. After that I went on a sort of douchebag/asshole trend that lasted some time. I ended up taking a break and returning to "normal." This is where I met most of my friends, and hear from everyone that Konrad is a nice guy, we all like him. I tend not to ever hang out with the people I met during douchebag days.
Well recently I've been back on the whole asshole road again, only this time I'm realizing it. The only thing that I don't know is am I an asshole or is it my defense mechanism to the world. I am doing things without thinking anymore, and stuff I would normally not do. The bar has become my sanctuary, and yesterday a friend told me we're only 25 we should have a substance abuse problem...NO WE SHOULDN'T, and why the hell would you tell me this? Now I'm not sure if I'm an asshole with periods of being nice, or a nice guy with a tendency to become an asshole.
Case in point last Wednesday, getting out of class a girl I went to undergrad with came up and talked to me (backstory I have turned her down at least a dozen times before), started talking to me and asked me if I want to go out. A reasonable response would have been, no I'm sorry I'm busy or something of the sort; My response during this whole asshole phase: Sorry 13 is not your lucky number, and I'm sorry I just don't find you attractive. Again I didn't realize what I said/did until after and it was too late. I've lost the filter in my head to stop me from saying/doing these types of things. The only saving grace I can think of is that I feel bad about these things later, not much of a saving grace though. So right now I'm trying to figure out who I really am, and maybe I should reinvent myself, because I don't know what the hell is wrong with me anymore.
In other news I'm back to eating once a day if at all, and still trying to work out at about 1 in the morning. Oh well.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I was told to blog...
...why do people tell me to blog? I don't have much to say, so lets have a recap; School-still boring
Work-I'm finally a librarian
School- did I mention school is still boring?
Paczki Day- Drinking and fun
Blowout Day 1 - Hasselhoffed Eric, Drinking and sort of fun
Day 2 - Didn't go, saw a blue floppy penis
Day 3 - Drinking and fun, threatened, had an awkward conversation and many drinks.
Yes I was threatened, if you f*ck this up, you f*ck with me...Now go get us shots. Nice, thank you. School is getting ridiculous, I am beginning to think that this program is intended for the slightly mentally challenged wanna-be librarians. I had to go talk to my adviser, told him about my class I was going to take he tells me I'll be bored for the first six weeks of the 14 week class, and already know 80% of the class...what? Can I only pay for the 20% I don't know? Interesting email from my teacher telling me I can skip class, because she doesn't have much to talk about and would be pointless to come, thank you! Monotone teacher is still monotone, and is getting stranger each class, I honestly believed she stopped caring 20 years ago, but now I'm not sure if she ever cared about teaching. So...I'm really running out of ideas, I am getting bored seeing the same re posts online, so I blog less. I have no idea if I will blog more consistently or just give up on this site, its been getting less and less traffic, and I am getting bored with it. We'll see, so this might or might not be my last post; tell me what I should do, because I really need advice, or a reason to try to blog.
Work-I'm finally a librarian
School- did I mention school is still boring?
Paczki Day- Drinking and fun
Blowout Day 1 - Hasselhoffed Eric, Drinking and sort of fun
Day 2 - Didn't go, saw a blue floppy penis
Day 3 - Drinking and fun, threatened, had an awkward conversation and many drinks.
Yes I was threatened, if you f*ck this up, you f*ck with me...Now go get us shots. Nice, thank you. School is getting ridiculous, I am beginning to think that this program is intended for the slightly mentally challenged wanna-be librarians. I had to go talk to my adviser, told him about my class I was going to take he tells me I'll be bored for the first six weeks of the 14 week class, and already know 80% of the class...what? Can I only pay for the 20% I don't know? Interesting email from my teacher telling me I can skip class, because she doesn't have much to talk about and would be pointless to come, thank you! Monotone teacher is still monotone, and is getting stranger each class, I honestly believed she stopped caring 20 years ago, but now I'm not sure if she ever cared about teaching. So...I'm really running out of ideas, I am getting bored seeing the same re posts online, so I blog less. I have no idea if I will blog more consistently or just give up on this site, its been getting less and less traffic, and I am getting bored with it. We'll see, so this might or might not be my last post; tell me what I should do, because I really need advice, or a reason to try to blog.
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